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She sings to me. Right now this is what she sings in my ear while we're swaying to the music in our heads in the kitchen. *sigh* Happy in love.
HOW LUCKY WE ARE by Meiko
One day we'll get outta this shitty apartment
One day is all it takes for things to turn around now
All I know is I got you and you got me, babe
And when that morning comes
I'll make coffee and you'll read the paper
We'll talk about our plans
And I'll keep saying how lucky we are
One day we'll get in the car and drive anywhere we wanna go
And then we'll stay in a five star, mini-bar, luxury hotel room
Cuz all I know is I got you and you got me, babe
And when that morning comes
I'll make coffee and you'll read the paper
We'll talk about our plans
And I'll keep saying how lucky we are
How lucky we are, oh oh oh
How lucky we are, oh oh oh
How lucky we are, oh oh oh
How lucky we are, are, are...
One day we'll turn on the tv and we won't see nothing 'bout war
And when that morning comes
I'll make coffee and you'll read the paper
We'll talk about our plans
And I'll keep saying how lucky we are
How lucky, how lucky we are
Oh how lucky, how lucky, how lucky we are
Oh how lucky, how lucky, how lucky we are
Oh how lucky, how lucky, how lucky we are
I really do hope that this one doesn't turn out like all the others, with me broken on someone else's floor, choking on the debris of what was thought to be a stable relationship. Only time will tell. For now I'm going to enjoy the indescribable feeling I get when she wraps her arms around me from behind and sings me love songs.
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[06 Sep 2008|02:02pm] |
My parents were in town a week ago. From the 23rd to 30th. That was nice. I pretty much went to work at 6am, got off at 2pm, went and picked up Arielle and my parents, we all went shopping and then to dinner, then back to the parents hotel for an hour or so, then back to Arielle's to smoke and whatever else we decide to do before bed. Usually role-playing sex, but that's neither here nor there.
Arielle's birthday was on the 22nd. She's 22. We had a great night. It was pretty hilarious b/c her ex who she dated for like 2 weeks 5 to 6 months ago and who is still hung up on her came, b/c I convinced Arielle to invite her. Mwuahahahha. I'm a horrible person. Anyway, there were a shit load of people around so everyone was mingling through out the house, just chatting to random people, but Becca (the ex) just sat on the lounge in the same place all night. So being the vaguely nice person that I am, I decided to sit down and get her talking to someone, if not me then the people around her and it worked. I got her talking to Tiffani and Cortney and then I left and went and talked to other people, think I played a game of drinking speed. Anyway I'm rambling, the point is I went out of my way to be nice to her and then out of nowhere she just stands up from the lounge and SLAPS the FUCK out of Arielle's ass as she's walking by. What? Yeah. Arielle just turned around and looked at me like, "Did you do that?" No. Tiffani was beside me and Tiffani just looked a little scared and nervous. Arielle realized who did it and just walked away, as did I, because I wanted to hit the girl. THEN...when I finally come back into the living room with them Arielle was sitting on the very end of the lounge and Becca at the top with her feet out. I went to go sit behind Arielle and this little bitch scooted her feet all the way over into Arielle's back. LMAO! Oh, she thought she was going to win. Poor little girl. I just sat on the floor in front of Arielle between her legs and quickly took her attention. At this point the game was getting fun. Mind you, I'd earlier decided to be nice to the girl and not purposely rub in her face that Arielle was with me, but after her actions, I'd changed that decision. Now at this time we'd been drunk for about 3 hours, and with 25 -30 drunk people it starts to get a bit loud, so we decided to go to a bar. We had Cortney and Tiff (the sober ones) drive us to Wizard's where Cortney proceeded to win the hearts of a whole gaggle of men playing pool, and then won their money. After I got Arielle a beer she decided she was drunk enough to dance, or least move a bit while leaning against a stool while I dance on her. I'll take what I can get though, it was actually pretty hot. I got her to dance on me for half a song too, and damn, I really wish she wasn't too shy to do that sober. But the 2nd best part was that Becca got to see it all. :oD
Anyway, we left the bar eventually...well Tiff, Arielle, Becca, Travis, and I left the bar b/c Arielle was way too drunk to even be sitting, and went back to Arielle's. Tiff and Becca stayed here on the couch and futon. The next morning I wake up at around 8am and want water immediately. Get up, go to the door and look down and there's a business card that's been shoved under the door. It was from Becca, like some lesbian calling card. It was an actual business card thing and it had her name, phone number, aim, okcupid, yahoo, and myspace info. Anyway, it also had some thing written on it and I wish I could find it so I could type it out but I think Arielle threw it away. Basically it said something to the effect of: "If you've received this you're of great interest to me and I think we should keep in touch. Or if you found this on the ground, disregard all of the above." On the back of the card she had written, "Thanks for inviting me. I had a great time." Now this is the great part....come to find later once Tiff and Corney had woken up...they each got a card from her too with a different message on the back.
I was the only one who didn't get one. :oD
That made me laugh, but I was hoping I would've gotten one that had all the front marked out and just said, "Fuck You" on the back. That would've been priceless. Damn it.
Anyway, a few pictures:
Cort, Travis, and Caleb.
Beautiful girl.
Cort and Arielle slow dancing in the kitchen with sugar free apricot preserves. Why? I have no idea, lol, but it's not uncommon to find them doing or talking about something completely random, but hilarious.
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| No more drinking for a fucking minute. |
[28 Jul 2008|10:34pm] |
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Soooo...woke up this morning beside Arielle, naked, in my bed, and the last thing I remember is being at a bar about 20 minutes from my house.
Last night was Deanna and Abraham's (Arielle's friends) going away party. Deanna is moving to Cali, and Abraham is moving to Dubai on Wednesday. The party was being held at Wizards. A sports bar that's VERY close to all thier places, but not so close to my place. (Let me just say that Arielle is, for the time being, homeless. Her lease ended July 15th, and she can't move into her new apartment until August 1st. She's been staying with me because if she stays at Cortney and Deanna's place she has to sleep on the couch and we both can't fit. :op) Okay, now that that's out of the way...Arielle and I have both been unemployed for about 2 weeks so we're pretty iffy about spending money. (I start a new job tomorrow, she has a job interview tomorrow) So Arielle suggested we just get a 12-pack of Steel Reserve, drink that at Cort and D's, and then go up to Wizards so we can drink for cheap and still go have fun with friends. Well apparently we forgot to do the math on the alcohol volume and I ended up drinking around what would be 9 to 10 Bud Lights (my normal beer which only takes me about 4-5 to get drunk), and Arielle ended up drinking what equals a 12-pack.
We actually drank some at Cort and D's, and then put a few more in Arielle's bag, snuck them into Wizards, poured them into a friends empty beer glass, and chucked the cans.
And while I've felt like I blacked out before, I usually remember things that happened throughout the next day. The only thing I remembered today was that I sat down at the bar, realized I was FUBAR'd, and decided I should leave immediately so I could pass out.
Apparently, occording to my roommate, we stumbled in around 12:30 hanging onto/helping each other walk. He said something to us, and we grunted at him. Went to my bedroom and then I came back out, got drinks, ran into the counter...twice, and went back to my room. 5 minutes later either Arielle or I went to the bathroom and puked for about 15 minutes.
Sooo yeah...I woke up at 8am this morning, head pounding, stomach swirling, completely naked, and did not remember anything. Still don't. Usually when I would forget before someone telling me what happened would trigger the memory. Not this time buddy. Anyway, ate a couple Motrin, went and laid down, realized if I could just puke I would feel 10x better, debated doing that for a few minutes because I had JUST taken the motrin, decided on doing it because I could always take more Motrin. Felt like shit for quite a while today. Arielle felt just as bad, but god love the girl she got up and cooked us up some egg/turkey/cheese/spice concoction and toast. That helped. :o)
Saying all that....I think you could understand why I want to quit drinking for a while. I mean, it would've been fucking horrible had I been by myself, but the fact that I had Arielle with me just really magnified it. Jesus must've listened and taken the wheel last night, LMAO.
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[08 May 2008|10:29pm] |
So I wish I could say that my life has gotten less chaotic in the time it's been since I last came to this site, but alas it has not. It has gotten worse. First off Krysta and I broke up (for good this time). We tried the friend thing after a while, but apparently that was causing her some issues so we haven't seen each other in a bit. That sucks because I miss my friend, but if it's too hard for her I don't want to force it, ya know?
My roommate has gone completely apeshit crazy. She eats pills like candy all day long and thinks it's okay. She acts like a fucking tweaker. She is in 30 places at one time and doesn't shut up long enough for you to tell her to shut the fuck up. If you bring up the changes in her she goes off on you about how hard she's had it lately. She lost her job because she was late so often she thought it standard that her superiors call her everyday to remind her she was supposed to be at work an hour ago. She thinks we are assholes because we don't pat her head and tell her how fucked up we think it is that they fired her when in reality we've been waiting on this for MONTHS and are very impressed with how long they put up with her shit.
I can not wait to move on June 1st.
I'm moving in with a couple more friends of mine. Chris and Nicole. They're married. They're fucking AWESOME. Sweetest people bar none that I've met here. They're very much mellow like me and I'm looking forward to a less chaotic home life. My friends are looking forward to it as well since they keep telling me that living here has changed me and made me become an angry person because I'm so stressed out all the time and pissed off at my roommate.
I recently applied for and took a drug test for a shift manager position at CVS. I know the store manager and I know she's going to hire me as long as I pass the drug test. I do tend to smoke a lot of pot now so I'm hoping against hope that the Ready Clean pills and drink I used worked. I should find out tomorrow. Cross your fingers for me.
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[28 Dec 2007|03:51pm] |
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Hello livejournal, been a while. Hope everyone had a great holiday, whatever you celebrate. My Christmas was nice. My roommates went kind of crazy for me because it's my first Christmas away from my family. It was very sweet. They rock my socks.
I have ended things completely with Krysta and am now dating a wonderful woman named Desiree. It's very odd because I was completely focused on Krysta for 2 years and now she doesn't want anything to do with me at all in any context. That's painful, but I had to move on from that situation because I was just walking in circles with her and I got too tired. I hate that she can't just understand that and be okay with it, it's not like she's not moved on before. It's not like she's not done A LOT of fucked up shit to me so I have no reason to really feel bad. I told her before I started dating Des. I did it as honestly as I could and it was like stabbing myself in the foot, but it had to be done. I know her though and I know she's mad because I'm not waiting on her anymore. She treated me like a toy that she would occassionally play with and then toss aside, but as soon as someone else wanted to play with me she would be interested again. I can't be that for her anymore. I would love to be her friend at some point eventually if she can deal with that, but if she can't I'm not going to beat myself up over it. Her loss.
Desiree is great though. She's an actual adult and that's a nice change of pace. My friends (even the ones I met through Krysta) love her and are ecstatic that I'm dating her. She can actually have a disagreement without screaming fuck you and walking away. It's very odd the things that surprise me with her. She offered to go get my drink from another room and that seriously just shocked me. No one's offered to do anything small like that for me in quite a while. It's nice. Plus, she's got her shit together and knows what she wants. And right now she really wants me so I'm just going with it.
Still working the same job, getting yelled at everyday by stupid people, but it pays the bills. Not much else has changed with me. I'm not that exciting. I don't go out much anymore. I'm actually starting to go a little stir crazy, so I think I should go out sometime soon though. :op
Don't know what else to write. Need to go to the store and buy toilet paper. It's insane how often I forget to buy toilet paper. It's the little things you take for granted when you don't supply things for yourself. :op
*LOVE*
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| Damien Rice |
[19 May 2007|05:44pm] |
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Kalan and I went to another Damien Rice show the other night AND MET HIM!!!!!
We walked out a random door to leave and got lost behind the building and as we were walking we saw the buses and thought about stopping but decided against since we figured it woudl be forever before he came out. Well, as we kept walking I looked over into an alcove and there he was just standing there smoking a cigarette. I had the biggest rush of adrenaline come over me. I had just sat through the best concert I'd ever been to and then was going to get to meet the man who had performed it. We ran over there and talked to him for a minute...he doesn't do pictures or autographs...seemed kinda shy so we just hugged him and talked for a sec and then moved on. I could tell he just wanted to smoke his cigarette and not get stuck out there with fans all night. Can't blame the guy...he'd just sang his ass off all night. It was incredible. I'm still all giggly about it and it was like two weeks ago. Good times.
I'm at work right now so I should probably go. It's REALLY slow though so I'm bored. Luckily I get out of here in about 15 minutes. It's Kalan's birthday so we're partying it up tonight. Hope all is well with everyone.
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[18 Apr 2007|04:34pm] |
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Tara, Kalan, and I have an apartment on lock. We're moving in on June 1st. My job is still going well. I'm at it right now actually. I have been sober 1 day since Krysta and I broke up. I still can't seem to get myself to sleep without being fucked up. I probably could if I tried hard enought but I don't want to think b/c if I think I'll cry and I don't like to cry. So I get drunk. I get really drunk...A LOT. I get drunk with Krysta sometimes and she just tries to hit on me and make out with me while I'm trying to be friends with her so that's not working out. I haven't talked to her since Friday. I only talked to her then because we (Tara, Kalan, Nikki, Mike, and I) were driving home in tornado weather and I was freaked out and I wanted to know she was okay. There were tornados going through lots of places near us. We made it home though and no tornado touched down near us. Yay.
Anyway, that was long and rambling and now I'm getting emails saying my co-workers are backed up so even though I'm on my lunch break I'm going to go help them out.
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[20 Mar 2007|06:48am] |
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Long story short:
Moved back to Texas to be with Krysta again at the end of January. About two weeks ago we broke up again. I'm still in Texas, I live with Tara and Kalan, and we're moving into a bad ass apartment soon. I'm working at Capital One Auto Finance, and actually like it. Speaking of COAF, I really need to leave so I can get to work on time. :o)
Point of story:
I suck at relationships and hope I get better at it, and I'm late.
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| Then Go... |
[09 Jul 2006|01:17pm] |
This song gives me chills just reading the lyrics he sang it so fucking well last night. I want the new cd. Now. I don't even know when it comes out. :o(
Among the afflictions,
With which I've been marked,
None so pretentious, no,
And none quite so dark.
I get the feeling you're bored with me,
Not through habit or frequency,
Did your mother have you easily?
And if there's some place else that you would rather be
Then go,
Then go,
Then go,
Then go.
Among the intentions,
Which have been sought,
Numbered and labelled,
But none of them bought.
I get the feeling you're testing me,
You're saturated in urgency,
And you stick your probe in further,
But you're still not pleased,
And if there's someplace else that you would rather be
Then go,
Then go,
Then go,
Then go.
Then go,
Then go.
Then go, go
I would have lied for you,
I would have cried for you,
I crossed the line for you,
I would have died for you
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| Damien Rice |
[09 Jul 2006|12:57pm] |
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Damien Rice is fucking phenomenal in concert. I couldn't believe it. He actually sounds BETTER than the cd. It was incredible. I can't wait for his new cd because all the new songs he played were great.
Next Fiona came on, I'm all excited about this ya know, it's Fiona Apple, but then she opened her mouth and this sound like a mix between singing and choking on a piece of wood came out and I was completely floored by the awfulness of it. Granted she's probably been singing every night for a while so her vocal chords are probably a little fucked, but man, she fucked up like that on EVERY SONG and didn't once, not ONCE, take a drink of water. There wasn't even a bottle of water around. I will say that she had a few songs mixed in where she didn't fuck up that bad, but it was just disappointing. We left before the encore, if there even was an encore.
However...the 45 minutes of Damien Rice was worth the $72 I spent on the ticket. He was THAT good.
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[22 Apr 2006|03:07pm] |
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Since so much is going on right now I don't have time to update that often. I'm working Monday - Friday and when I'm off work I'm always doing something. And on the days when mine and Krysta's schedules mesh we spend that time together cuz it's few and far between. Example: I'm off today and she's at work until 10pm. Sucky, but I'm loving my life right now. We were supposed to go to a Tool show on May 8th. The tickets went on sale at 10am this morning and we overslept till umm...2pm haha. They're fucking SOLD OUT. That sucks, but we're still hitting the NIN show. Anyway, here are some pictures from the last few weeks.
( To Texas, In Texas )
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[06 Apr 2006|01:35pm] |
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I'm in Texas! I've been here for a few days. It rocks. Krysta's the hottness and she's not a bitch. Tara and Kalan are fun. Garland is big, but it's okay. Anyway, I'm hungry as fuck and we're trying to wake Tara up so we can all go to Herrera's to eat so I'm gonna go. Hope everyone is well.
I love it here!!
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I'm finally feeling a little better. Went out with Chadd Thursday night because he'd been calling me everyday wanting me to come out, and I got tired of saying no. Got d-runk, and now I kinda feel like shit again. I love him so much, but now that he's back I realize that we really don't have that much in common. We like most of the same things, sure, but all he ever wants to do is go to random people's houses and get drunk. That's fun every once in a while, but I don't want to do that shit every night. I don't want to go to a kegger on Friday, buy a case as soon as I wake up on Saturday, and then house hop on Sunday. Can't we just chill? Plus, him and his dad do coke a lot, and he wants me to do it with him. I appreciate the offer, but I'll pass. Maybe occassionally I'll do some with him. Not gonna lie about that, but I'm not gonna do it every other week. And when I do do it I don't want to be driving around Rutherford county going to people's houses with a fucking 8 ball in my pocket. If I can't eat it all without dying, it's too much to have in the car with me. /rant.
I've neglected the internet lately in favor of...nothing. I just haven't wanted to get online. Everything's good, everybody's doing okay, I'm just bored with the internet. Still trying to find a god forsaken job. I hate this damn county. I can't wait until I'm out of here. Out of this whole state. I should be going to Texas soon. Might look at apartments with T. while I'm out there. That would work out to the good for both of us. Who knows though? That's a big decision and I've had several long discussions with all directly affected, but there are still things to consider. We'll see.
Now...quizzes jacked from Shannon because it's been FOREVER since I've done any of these things...
( Who am I? )
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[22 Jan 2006|09:18pm] |
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There's good news and there's bad news...
The good news is the Carolina Panthers are going to the Super Bowl...
The bad news is that's a big fat lie.
The actual good news is that Pittsburgh Steelers really are going, so I hope they fucking DESTROY the Seattle Seahawks. Fuck Shaun Alexander all up!!!
Dammit.
I'm going to go eat ice cream now.
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| Football... |
[08 Jan 2006|03:54pm] |
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Carolina Panthers just beat NY Giants 20-0. YEAH BABY! They're playing the Chicage Bears next week.
Pittsburgh Steelers @ Cincinnati Bengals coming up...
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[04 Jan 2006|05:23am] |
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Wake up, take your pills dear,
I know this time of year
ain't right for you...
You came with a sickness,
shot down back in Christmas,
kamikaze rain.
And I'm sure you've lost that weight again,
I'm sure the pills keep pouring in,
like smoke that falls, it's caving into you.
So put me on a plane and fly me to anywhere...
but you.
One night when you woke up,
you bled til you spoke up,
oh, this ain't pretty dear.
With clocks, watch the time go,
til spring, when the sun can
finally be free.
And I'm sure you've lost that weight again,
I'm sure the pills keep pouring in,
we'll scream at night
to make it go away...
So put me on a plane and fly me to anywhere...
but you.
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| Happy Thanksgiving All! |
[24 Nov 2005|03:52am] |
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Even you Canadians who celebrated it already, last month. :op
It's the time for gathering large amounts of family and friends in one place and giving thanks - then eating lots and lots of food and avoiding the relatives that drive you crazy. Good times.
Hope everyone has a happy and safe holiday.
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| Memoirs of a Geisha... |
[23 Nov 2005|12:37am] |
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as a movie? Yes. December 23rd. Merry Christmas to me.
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